rant

This is a particularly stressful season at work, and I'm overwhelmed.  I feel like I'm doing more than I've ever done before, working harder, juggling more things, and since I've been doing this job for over a year now (my job changes a lot depending on the time of year), I'm able to do things at a higher quality, now that I've been through it all once.  I work over 8 hours most days, and 12 hour days are not uncommon.  I'm putting a lot into work, and I feel like I definitely miss out on other things because of it.  I work at a non-profit, so I'm definitely not bringing home the big bucks.  I like what I do, and I appreciate the chance I have to make a difference, so I'm not ready to give it up, but right now it is really hard.  We are in the middle of a project that is supposed to be volunteer-driven, and my volunteers are struggling.  We aren't making the progress we need to make, and it is reflecting poorly on me.  I left work at 7:30 tonight because I couldn't hold it together anymore, and needed to come home and have a good cry in the boyfriends arms.  I don't know what else to do to motivate the volunteers to get things done, and time is running out.  I want to go to grad school for something that is very closely related to what I'm currently doing, but when I was in college, I never in a million years thought I'd want to go back to school, so my grades were average, but not really grad school material.  I feel like I really need to succeed at one particular project I'm working on, because it will help with that grad school application, but that isn't the project that all eyes are on right now.  I'm trying to keep all the plates spinning, but I'm terrified that they are all going to come crashing down soon.  I can't wait until mid-December when things finally calm down some. 

Until then... I guess I'm just going to take deep breaths and hope that tomorrow is a better day!